I though about mum today. I was traveling on my way home from work, and as usual I was sat in traffic. I always rang mum on the way home, when I was sat in traffic. It was part of my everyday routine. I really miss that especially today. I really cant express just how much I miss her. I'm not sure your ever ready to say goodbye to your mum, but I just felt today that I wanted to speak to her and say goodbye. I really feel I haven't said goodbye to her yet. I don't know how to. I'm not sure I ever will. All I know is where ever you are mum - I really do miss talking to you.You always knew the answer to all the of the thousands of questions I asked you. If I spoke to you today, I would tell you how stressed I am because I have an exam tomorrow. I would tell you that my grass is dying in my back garden and of course you would know what was wrong with it. I would tell you that Finn has started karate and has won a medal at football. I would also tell you how brilliantly he is doing at school. I know how proud you would be, god how I miss that. There is just too many tears today, so I will leave it there.